"To soothe the savage beast..."

I feel like my life is spinning out of control.

My health hasn't been so much like my normal immortal self. Fever and stomach pains have kept me out of school half the week.

I missed lots of important classes and mid-sem is just around the corner. Can't say im not worried.

Missed my last day of work. My saikangs called in though, seeing if I was alright.

Pool. Somebody destroyed the middle table at the lounge while I was gone. Now we have one left. Finding out who's responsible wont solve anything at this point. I'm just sad. Another piece of home... Gone.

My temper is... I don't know what to say about it. I'm usually a patient guy. But over the week, I lashed out at my brothers, Douglas, Zain.... Over such trivial matters. I'm so sorry.

There are also problems at home that I can't talk about here.

I wanna fix things. Get my life in order but it's just.... depressing. I don't think I have it in me anymore to keep fighting. I don't know whether I'll survive, whether I can make to next year in school or even with a roof over my head. So many uncertainties...

I don't have a guiding light to keep running to even through dark times. Not anymore.

Emmz took me out to catch a movie on Friday. It helped me take my mind off things. At least for awhile. Thank you Mom. :)

I need help. I need hope.

Take care and study hard ppl...

Ciao~

"To soothe the savage beast... To give hope."

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