"The choices that I have made..."

In the course of everything that has gone on recently, I have lost the trust of some of my peers. I hope they understand that there is a reason behind everything I do. I do not derive pleasure from betraying their trust or hurting them. Life is complicated, shit happens etc. Whatever it is, I swear I'll work hard to earn back the trust that I lost.

I guess I'm just more honest than others about my feelings towards ppl. I do not belong to any exclusive social group. In a way, I guess that gives me freedom sometimes to just speak my mind without having to worry that my place in a particular clique will be threatened. Talking about stuff behind ppl's backs is rather "fake" don't u think?

Why be ashamed of feelings about someone that can change at anytime? Ear-marking ppl who u know have a problem with u isn't much better. Why can't we just be civil and honest at the same time? At least when we're honest both parties are aware there's a problem and can work together to resolve it. Much better right?

Bottomline is like my previous post. Be nice to EVERYONE. Not just to certain ppl in ur clique. Even if u dun like someone, co-existing without any violent reactions would make the atmosphere much better for everyone else. It'll solve so many problems... Including falling lounge duty attendance. LOL

I feel that in defending this ideal, I have sacrificed alot lately in terms of relationships. That's why... I wanna take this opportunity to thank those who still stick by me regardless and understand the vision I am striving for. :)

Raining again. Lounge curtains are open... Zzzz

Take care y'all :)

Ciao~

"The choices that I have made... Have yielded its effects. I will not stray..."

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