"Filling in the blanks..."

It's been 13 days since my last post. lol

Working has kept me too busy to pay attention to certain aspects of my life. Such as love, family... and blogging apparently.

I'd like to start by coming clean. I do this as a gentleman. I do this because it's important to our future relations. I do this so people can understand.

I learnt alot from work. Like ethics and inter-staff relations from my mentors. It's better to put whatever differences we have out in the open so we can all move forward. Rather than keeping a grudge inside and letting it manifest at the most unproductive moments.

I hate you. Brainer Lee Hsian Long. I will not hide behind pleasantries like "Juicesucker" or whatever. I feel I have the right to be straightforward. I dont hate your friends. I dont wanna be your friend. From now on... I'll make this clear. I think you're the one guy on Earth who doesn't deserve to be loved. But God loves you. Be thankful. Whatever I say or do to you or for you will be strictly professional. Nothing more. Nothing less. I wont make your life hell. And I will honorably oblige any duty I will have to perform only as a schoolmate or as a member of TPSU. U dont have an enemy out of me. But I STRESS the fact that I DONT like you and NEVER will again. The amount of respect and friendship I have lost for you can only be blamed on yourself. And if you wonder why I have such contempt for you, you should reflect long and hard.

So there... Now you've heard it from me for all to see.

That aside... I think I'm more certain than ever where I want my ambitions to take me. I like the hospitality industry. The service I can provide makes a difference to people's experiences. And I like that feeling of accomplishment. Recently, there've been regular customers asking for me by name. My initial reaction was like "WHOA!!!". But hey, I take this job seriously. More than others perhaps. Getting complimented is a sign that Im on the right path and it spurs me on to improve even more. Even my managers have noticed my willingness to learn more and have taught me little things that make the difference in this trade.Like how to put that extra sparkle into cutleries and glasses and how to prepare the "perfect" cup of coffee. It's more than making money, the time I spend at the retaurants are really turning out to be the starting point of my dreams like I've hoped it would be. :)

Currently I'm takin time off work to help my family prepare for Hari Raya and to catch up with my best friends. I accompanied Jinx as he studied for A-levels. Spent a whole day with him. He's goin to NS in December. SO SOON???

I'm really gonna miss him lah. He's not too happy about it either and I can't seem to cheer him up. Haix...

Ytd I spent the night over at Rahz place and finished Halo 3. Wow! The first game that left me speechless in a long time. Graphics, gameplay, story... Even the ending was perfect. Had alot fun. ^^

Played DotA too. Recently I've been playin with my "clan". Consisting of Rahz, my cuz and his friends. Seems to be the only thing I do when I'm at home. Which is oni abt a couple of hours a day thanks to work. It's like we play daily from midnite when I get home all the way till 4am, right before I rest and prepare for work.

Our motto is:

"SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK!"

Bwahahahahaha!!! :P

I've had my eye on some girls lately. We get along. But I dont have the time to take anything further. It's frustrating me. I'm never alone but... somehow... I am very lonely these days. I want someone who makes my eyes light up and "smile along" when she makes me smile. Mebbe that's what I should wish for this coming Birthday. Hahax... :)

Ciao~

P.S.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri to all my friends Muslim or not.
Maaf Zahir dan batin. :)

"Filling in the blanks... that my heart has left behind"

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