"If I had wings..."

Am I considered an insomniac blogging at 4.30 in the mornin?

Heck... Seriously, I'm a man who lost his ability to sleep. It's starting to take its toll on my body. I can feel the grip of fatigue on my various systems. Yet... Here I am. LOL

Doesn't help that a certain someone got me addicted to S.H.E recently. My bros are callin me "Munjen", which means yellow in Tamil for listenin to Chinese songs. Mmmmm... Racist bastards. xD

I think I need to see a counsellor or somethin. I have serious emotional imbalances that need remedying. Where that cold and somewhat "EMO" place in my chest used to be, there is now an ugly temper. Im officially an angry guy now. Haix...

I lose my cool to the smallest things. I keep imagining this huge red and black ball of wrath growing within and my fists start to clench. I force myself onto bed just to keep me off a bloody warpath.

Tried talking to my mom about it last night. According to her, I have too much pent up anger since childhood. Too much that I forgive... but never forget. Perhaps it's true... I have been especially forgiving in recent days.

Conscience, Tolerance, Patience and Self Control. Things that I consider important parts of my life is to blame for my current state of mind. They are are also what will help me through this. I must stay strong and remind myself:

"I am the lord of my own soul. May God keep me true. Guide me. Amen..."

*TAKES A DEEP BREATH*

Ciao~

"If I had wings... I would rise above..."

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